Monday, December 26, 2016
Here is what I *tried* to post:
December 21, 2016
4 days until Christmas.
4 freaking days.
I'm not ready at all.
Whoever is ready for a holiday like this? Seriously. There's a million things that I keep remembering that I haven't done yet, presents that still need to be wrapped, people I *should* shop for but can't...
The worst part? I'm dead broke.
It would be something if I could actually NOT spend money and save it all year, but there's ALWAYS something that comes up unexpectedly and *boom* there goes the little I managed to save.
That's why I'm not ready.
But no matter what, it's coming, so I'd better enjoy the time with my kids.
My oldest is home from college for a few days to spend Christmas with us... and his friends who are home too. ;) He has to go back on the 26th.
I'll have to share some pictures of my semi-decorated house, which btw, is only semi because I'm NOT READY, lol. Usually the tree is up Thanksgiving, and the decorations are up around the same time. This year I didn't get anything up until last week, and I STILL have decorations to put up.
Have a Merry Christmas!
Friday, November 25, 2016
I'm a hopeless romantic. I watch tv shows or movies and cry over relationships starting, or ending and everything in between.
In fact right now, my mind is reeling over the last few days of binge watching my favorite slow of all time, GLEE... I end up having vivid dreams after watching that parallel the show.
I just wish my love life hadn't gone to hell like it did.
I don't know what I could have done differently though. I did everything I could to save my marriage.
The last five years of the relationship were pure hell. I've blogged about it too much. Hell, I've blogged about my loneliness too much. But I have to get it off my chest somehow or I'll burst.
So now, at 3:30am I'm just barely going to bed, after, you guessed it, watching my favorite show... and I'm listening to country music, which only happens when I'm feeling especially lonely and sad.
I don't know what I'm doing. 5 years of being alone. 3 of those as a single mom. I purposely don't make time for myself, unless it's at ungodly hours of the night/morning like right now. So how in the hell am I supposed to go meet guys?
I'm gonna be alone forever. :'(