Friday, April 28, 2006

My bad week...

I've been to the hospital twice now becasue I got a staph infection in my left leg. I just wrote about the dangers of staph and my problems on my other blog. Needless to say, I have had a bad week. And now I have to worry about the hospital bills ;( I have no insurance. I don't know what to do. I have not been able to make money from my biz. Actually from neither of them. And autosurfing is no way to make money either. I've lost about $15 there, which was all loose change, but frustrating nonetheless. Forgive me, I need to go bawl my eyes out now. No money + bad infection= AAAAAAAARRRRRRRRGGGGGGHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!! ;( ;( ;( ;(

Saturday, April 15, 2006


My vent is about DH. Nearly every day this week he comes home and immediately falls on the bed and goes to sleep. He doesn't even bother to move things off the bed, whether it's clean clothes or other, he just falls onto the bed with his dang dirty work clothes still on and falls asleep. He sleeps for a couple of hours, then he wakes up, takes a shower, and immediately goes to the store and comes home with an 18 pack of beer. Then he and his buddies proceed to plow through at least four 18 packs, tear the kitchen apart with thier munchies, and stay up listening to music until nearly 2 in the morning. Now like I said, this has happened nearly everyday this week, starting on Wednesday. Saturday he didn't even go to work. Friday night, actually Saturday morning he finally came to bed at 5am. Friday afternoon he and his buddies decided to have a bbq in the front yard of all places. So of course now there is approximately 6+ boxes of empty beer cans, and quite a few empty cans piled up in front of the kitchen windows, on the ground.

He finally confessed to me last night too, that he has been talking on the phone to his ex-girlfriend nearly every day since December. He confessed that he nearly left me and the kids to go back with her. She still lives in Mexico. He ran into her when he was there in December, and says that he still feels something for her, but that it's just a great friendship feeling, not love. He claims he loves his kids and me enough that he would never leave us. He'd rather deal with my mood swings and laziness than leave his children to be with another woman. I knew that he had been speaking to some girl on the phone, cause he would leave the house to make the phone call and if I caught him on the phone he would walk away or ask me to shut up. so I already knew that he was talking to someone else.

*SIGH* I just can't trust anybody. ;(

Friday, April 14, 2006

I have to write about this...

I don't really know how to put my feelings into words about this subject. It's a little tender for some, but the info I just was introduced to makes me, well, extremely pissed. I'm talking about the events leading up to, during, and after 9/11.

At, we had been discussing this subject, rather heatedly, I might add. Here's the link if you're interested But what comes into play is the fact that on April 28, the first of two 9/11 movies will be released in the movie theaters. This movie is about what the families believe transpired aboard Flight 93, the one that crashed into a field in Pensylvania.

Or did it? What about the American Airlines flight that crashed into the pentagon??? Did it really? And why was there so much controversy about the subsequent events with the twin towers? They shouldn't have fallen, that much has been said, but were they damaged enough from the planes to fall like that????

I urge you to watch this video This is part one of three. You will need to watch all three. Watch them with your full attention, at a time where you will not get distracted. You will need about one hour and thirty minutes to devote to watching all three videos. Warning, you may feel sick to your stomach after you finish watching them.

I have nothing more to say about this right now.

This post has been generously sponsered by! HUGS TO YOU JAC!!

Wednesday, April 12, 2006

Rain, Whining, and Lack of $$$

Sara, you really got me with this one!
Ok, so Sara, my buddy, has a great blog entitled My Mothers Fault, and in that post she was dealing with the "mama guilt." UHHH I can totally relate!

Here I was today, trying to deal with the darn rain, two whining kids who wanted to go into Target to buy a new game for the gameboy, and needing to get gas and pay for DD's doctor appointment somehow! I had $19 in cash and I had to fork out $100 total or the doc wouldn't see her. So I forked over the last of my precious $$, and maxed out my CC with the rest of the payment. Then the doc gives me a precription for DD for an eye infection, which means I have to go to Target anyway to fill it. UGH! So the kids start whining again, and I have just barely enough left on my Target card to pay for DD's meds and some brownies for her and her brother. But of course, he wanted to buy a game, either for the computer or the gamboy. Sheesh! They can't understand me when "I say I have no money!" So now I start to get the mama guilt! I never wanted to turn into my mother! Thank goodness she hates the computer and doesn't even go on the internet, cause she wouldn't want to read my life crisis the way I put them out! Half of the stuff I have blogged about she doesn't even know about and I'd like to keep it that way! But I am afraid I am starting to act like her with my kids, so I can truly say that "it's my mother's fault!'

Tuesday, April 11, 2006

You'll never guess what I did!!!!!!

So, I've been trying to earn money from home. I joined a great team last year and have started to make a little (say $2-6) with that biz, but I certainly don't make enough money to stay at home. So what do I do?????? I join two other biz's! Crazy huh?!!

I've been kinda following my friend Cindy's blog also, Moms Makin Monny, and I have done some of the things that she suggests! I do paid surveys, and autosurfing now! You can also find a great list of surveys on my other friend Elizabeth's blog Free Survey Lists. Both blogs have helped me in my search for $$$$$! HAHA!! I have been paid a whopping total of $.20 for one autosurf I joined, and I am anxiously awaiting a $5 payment from another! I also been paid $30 from a survey site that I've been doing for a while! So take a look at what my friends say about making money on the internet! I trust thier advice!

BTW- bet you're wondering what the other two biz's are I joined! Mia Bella Candles and Stuff A Friend! SAF was free to join! Great bday party gifts and activities *hint-hint*!!!!

Friday, April 07, 2006

I had a problem a while back on this blog...

I don't know if anyone else noticed- my sidebar was appearing underneath my posts. And I wasn't the only one with the same problem either!! My pal Elizabeth had the same problem and she blogged about how she went about fixing it! Well, I followed her tips, but it still didn't come out right. OK, then , so what did I do??? HA! Actually it was a week or so ago and I honestly can't remember *someone please hit me on the head* I think it was because some of my links were too wide or something like that... But if anyone ever has that same problem with your sidebar going to the bottom of your posts- read Elizabeth's blog cause she really went into detail on how to fix it.

What can I do to make my biz work???

So I have been working with the Stayin Home and Lovin It! Team since last May- close to a year now. But I haven't been really succesful with it yet. And I really want this biz to be my main biz!! So I've been searching for help, and I found this post on my friend's blog: Dancing to music that matters to you. I've heard similar thoughts from my current upline with SHALI, and all around the home biz world, but she just made it sound so simple!! It has to matter to me, and I have to find people that have the same feelings.

Monday, April 03, 2006

I'm trying to become a gourmet chef! (YEAH RIGHT!)

Well, now that my SIL is no longer living with us, I am forced to cook. It's not that I don't want to, but cause I have no idea how to. I mean, I grew up learning to cook Ramen noodles, macaroni and cheese, and green eggs with no ham. Me cook?? NAHHHHH! But then I was reading my pal's blog Revenge of the couch potatoes and she talked about lefovers, which I never know what to do with! I may have to try her concoction, although I hate cream of mushroom soup. Maybe with chicken tortilla soup instead or baked potato soup. Anyway I did try something the other day which actually turned out wonderful! I cooked chicken breast with a lemon pepper marinade. While the chicken was cooking, I put to boil some rainbow rotini, which had been sitting in my pantry for over a month. When the chicken was done I poured it over the pasta, and VOILA!! Instant meal! Wow, I actually cooked and didn't even burn the water this time! Thanks VeryCute for the inspiration!! DH actually liked it, and of course, neither of the kids would try it (they are in the wannabe vegetarian stage). Well, I have lots of ramen noodles to cook with...

Sunday, April 02, 2006

Hmm, what would I do if I could make improvments to my husband!! I was reading my friends blog The Crazy Housewife , and she had a great technical view on her husband situation. If only life were that simple!! Wouldn't it be great to be able to add, change, and remove programs from your husband, just like you do with your computer?? Only the problem is that the computer is waaaaaaay easier to change and remove programs on. I would love to be able to take away a few things from DH right now! Limiting his time with his buddies would please me greatly, while increasing his time with the three of us. Today wasn't as bad, we did a few things together, but it's when it is most needed for us to be togther that he decides his buddies need some more beer. HA! Add hot food and lingere indeed. I'll let the crazy housewife do her own upgrading, cause I don't really care for the lingere part.