Wednesday, February 20, 2013
By Eden E. Hopper
1. The evergreen tree lives up to its name every day of its life, staying true to its colors, even when the world is grey.
2. It shares its peace and beauty with all who come near it, no matter what they look like or what they believe.
3. It sways and dances, whispering strength to all its neighbors and its fuzzy little tenants, when the harsh Santa Ana winds come whipping up the face of the mountain.
4. It makes a safe, warm haven for those it harbors in its care, giving them shelter and comfort from the cold.
5. It bows gracefully when the heavy snows come down.
6. It stays firmly rooted to the ground through it all.
7. And last but not least, it grows just a little bit everyday as it strives to reach towards heaven!
Those are 7 things I need to remember myself! :o)
Thursday, February 07, 2013
I had this interesting encounter with a friend the other day. She is actually more of an aquaintance than a friend, but no matter... what she said totally surprised me.
So, I'm part of a group that has been trying to bring family friendly community events back to the town we live in. This Saturday is a dance we are putting on- a Sweethearts Dance. So I asked her if she was going, and she said, "I don't have a sweetheart." To which I replied, "well neither do I but I'm still going!" And then she said, "but don't you have xxxx? Aren't you two dating?" That's what surprised me. So, of course I had to say "No, we are just friends." And then she said, "well that's too bad, you two should be." Another surprise!
Yes, I like this guy, but I have said it before- right now I have to focus on getting my kids back, and getting my divorce finalized before I start dating anyone. Its kinda neat that people are telling me that they think he and I should be together. ;o) she isn't the first, lol...
I don't know what to say anymore to the people who say that to me. Maybe I should just do what I did tonight when someone else said that- just shrug and say, "its not up to me."
Kira sandoval :o)
Sunday, February 03, 2013
We are not together anymore. Things have not improved since 2006. I am shocked that things have been as bad as they were for so long. I was blind to way too many things. Right now I am just doing my best to make life better for my kids.
The drinking dh did never changed. In fact, it got worse, and he got into drugs as well. :o(
He is currently in Mexico- he was deported in 2009. My kids and I followed him, with me thinking that things would improve, but I was wrong.
I'm too tired to go into anymore details... but I just had to comment on the older post!
It has been a hard week. On 1-25, my church family lost a dear member to pancreatic cancer. Today, 2-2, we laid him to rest.
So many things that surround me right now are making me feel extremely sad and depressed, and as much as I try to avoid them, they keep shoving themselves in my face. The loss of someone close makes me worry about my immediate family- my mom lives alone in California, and my dad lives two towns away, yet I hardly have any communication with either of them. They are both past 65, and both have health issues which could cause them to leave us at any time. :'( I am depressed about that because I have not been the daughter I should be, helping them out or communicating with them as often as I should.
That coupled with seeing a new relationship among two new friends of mine, and the stark realization that I am more than likely going to be alone, and a single mother, for many more years to come makes me even more depressed and sad.
What else can I do to make things better, short of drowning out my sorrows with beer, as my soon-to-be ex husband always did.... I look for friendships that will support me when I need them the most and who will help me steer clear of destructive behavior, yet the ones who I thought would be that type of friend either have backstabbed me, or ignored me for reasona I cannot fathom. I look for distraction and friends who can help distract me, but without completely loosing my senses.
I HATE feeling lost like I do now. :(
Kira sandoval :o)