Friday, November 25, 2016

Yet another lonely post

I'm a hopeless romantic.  I watch tv shows or movies and cry over relationships starting, or ending and everything in between.

In fact right now, my mind is reeling over the last few days of binge watching my favorite slow of all time, GLEE... I end up having vivid dreams after watching that parallel the show.

Sad huh.

I just wish my love life hadn't gone to hell like it did. 

I don't know what I could have done differently though. I did everything I could to save my marriage.

The last five years of the relationship were pure hell. I've blogged about it too much. Hell, I've blogged about my loneliness too much. But I have to get it off my chest somehow or I'll burst.

So now, at 3:30am I'm just barely going to bed, after,  you guessed it, watching my favorite show... and I'm listening to country music,  which only happens when I'm feeling especially lonely and sad.

I don't know what I'm doing.  5 years of being alone. 3 of those as a single mom.  I purposely don't make time for myself, unless it's at ungodly hours of the night/morning like right now. So how in the hell am I supposed to go meet guys?

I'm gonna be alone forever.  :'(